Rob's Music.

The start of a good thing. The start of my album, pretty much what I’ve been sitting on for all these years.

I get up everyday at 4am get ready for work at 7 and some how i still end up 30 min late. I think about the future all the time cause somehow I find comfort in a world that is still being built by the min and decisions of today. I quickly realize in my hour or more ride to work that not matter how I think of it my parents, my bro and extended fam live 8 hrs away and consoling in them like most 20 something’s do when in a tough spot only comes in sporadic phone calls. Loneliness is something I deal with everyday yet those around like my peers or friends either take no notice or can’t fathom the emotion ditch I’m in and or the one I’m trying to hide. Hiding has been my best trick to date whether it’s a simple smile or superman costume I put on when I pick up my guitar and boast my slow rise to fame. Some days I want to end it all but the fellow curious feline in me wants to read to the end of the book. Lately with the success of my two best friends current relationships I wonder what life would be like if I split the boulder on my back in two and give the other half to my ” other half” to help me carry such stress, yet at the moment there is no pretty Ms. to give it to. The concept of truly giving your self to another has always been my biggest fear cause the enigma of your closest allie becoming your worst enemy drives me insane most nights but also reassures me that this crazy idea of boundaries is what I need. I don’t know what the future holds now nor have I ever but I hope that I see my dream and not the plain reality most see where becoming the “next best thing” on my life’s list is the only plausible choice to make. I believe the truly outrageous choice are the only ones that gets the most results because you have more to loose in the end so you try not to squander focus on materialistic things. However such rewards in life do not cure the fact that now I’m alone now and if one day my dreams come true then I’ll be alone on the road with a small fortune but no real home.

I am so crushing on Sara Bareilles these days! There’s just something about a chick who can sing and play piano in high heels that’s so f@$&ing sexy! I think at some point this week I’ll write a song about you just like John Mayer wrote “your body is a wonderland” about Jennifer love huette! Day dreaming for the rest of the day with a sill grin on my face!!! =)

So I’m starting to get into the habit of not saying exactly what’s on my mind on face book cause everyone just loves to get attended about useless shit! I mean half of you ignore me in the real world but I guess venting on cyber space isn’t a good idea… Anyways since no one really read this jank yet I just want to get some stuff off my chest.

Ok so I always entertained the thought of “making it” and now I’m at the cross roads where that might be an actual possibility? I know right, ahaha any who… The main thing I have to remember which is hard to get into any artists head is that, my song (my babies) are now just products! And how do I sell said products, well now that’s the hard part. I know somewhere out there on the interweb there’s a guild on how to sell your product no fail but I think I wanna take the trial and error rout just so I can say “I made things happen for myself”. Yes sirs and madams I just quoted my hero John Mayer so sue me! Any ways here’s the checklist.

Release single - check
Promote and interview - in the process of
Try and get radio AirPlay - half of a check
Release second single - TBD
More promoting hopefully some real show - TBD
Release video - got a crew and a director just need leading lady =)
Release EP - TBD

If I play my cards right I can at least sell 450 copies in the first week I can make billboard top 100! I’d probably be at 100 but at least it’s a goal with in my immediate reach and it’ll turn heads to my direction! That’s all I really want!

Hopefully thing go according to plan.
Rob!

Since no one really reads my tumblr anyways I’m gonna throw this out there. Im in the giving mood most likely cause of Christmas so my face is available and unlike santa I don’t “come” only once a year ;)

In my life I’ve been alot of things, a son, a brother, black, musical, nice, talented but to me for some reason the only thing I thought I was, was not good enough. Tonight I realized not good enough for who? A girl who only dates 30 yr old or for one who would dump you for marketing her happy? Not good enough for a corporate job or to afford the car I want? I think the question i should ask myself is am I where I wanted myself to be by now? I got so wound up on how I wanted everyone els to perceive me that I forgot how I wanted to see myself. These next few months are gonna be hard cause I’m gonna do the one thing I never wanted to be and that’s selfish. I’m gonna spend my time finishing up my demo and focusing on gettin it out there and heard. Put the effort I spent on other to try and gettin myself somewhere. I never wanted to be like this but I don’t want to disappoint myself anymore either. It’s a new year so there should be a new way of doing things.

Rob!

Olivia-friggen-Wilde! I would do terrible horrible things to be with this chick.

Sometime you gotta just realize you aren’t good enough. Wipe the dirt off of you try harder and move on. I gotta learn that success isn’t a measured by the people I surround myself with. Instead it’s the satisfaction at the end of the day when I worked hard at it and for it. I’m just still waiting on the future.

Ok so I’m working on my LP and an EP as well! So far I have 4 song down… I think lol? Anyways it’s funny cause I’ve played some of these songs for two years now and had no real idea which direction they’d go once I had a producers input. Luckily enough the person who’s recording mixing and producing my songs is my bass player from my other band and knows enough theory to suggest harmonies and other intricacies I never would have thought of! But that’s besides the point, we have roughly the same taste in music so I sees exactly where I want to go with the song and works with my idea well! Also I’ve been learning HTML so I can create a website… Its still under construction while I do research on other band sites but you can check it out at robparksmusic.com. Other then that I’ve been in an awesome mood lately probly due to Christmas and all the awesome music and movies! I wonder if thing could get any better like getting my email notification from sonic bids that I got accepted to play south by southwest in Texas! That’s how my hero got signed. All I got to say is John Mayer here I come and maybe someday you will take me on as an apprentice!

Rob!

It’s funny how a year or two goes by and after said amount of time you can see one person and feel your heart shatter into a million pieces all over again.